Ugly Side

I must have sneezed
On knees I freeze
I mean I just choked up
Somehow I slept
I dream, I mean
I dreamt of nothing
Able to breathe
A sweet relief
Now that you're here with me
A northern degree
Dove into me
Now I'm recovering

I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
Not my ugly side

Hook up a C.B. Wave a way
For conversation flow
I'm shoved in your cave, to wage this rage
Don't let me go
A kick and a scream is all that seems
To mean a lot thus far
I won't let you on my stage, my page
You can't know
Yet you have to know

So calm... and now it's dark
I look for you to light my heart
I'm in between the moon and where you are
I know... I can't be far

---Ugly Side by "Blue October"

Kabuki as a gargoyle feeling the changes of the past few weeks, especially with her relationship of the past months down the tubes, learning to deal with half her life being "gone", and then her body betrays her. She sinks into the "ugly side" and hides behind the polite society mask that she was trained to wear.